One Week In

Well I have been on the birth control pill to sync up with my donor for one week now. I feel emotional but centered. I am afraid and anxious but excited to get started. I want this to work so badly. I had given up on the idea of having a biological child after my last miscarriage this winter. We submerged ourselves in the adoption world answering profile questions, putting together family pictures and finalizing the documentation. This is new hope because we have never done IVF with donor eggs. We tried and failed the last two times with my eggs, we only had a 20% chance of success anyway. Dr. T says we have approximately 85% chance of success with donor eggs since my uterus is "gorgeous" and fluffs up to a 13 lining (with an e-string only of course). So this time I don't have the same doubts and sense of dread. Not to say that this is a sure thing but I feel so much better about it than I did the other cycles. I want to try this because I want to be sure. If this does not work out then at least I will not always wonder if it would have. Maybe our baby will look like Richard.